\n i feel like the world is shifting back and forth....its as if i have no control over my body anymore.....my mind has nothing but emptyness, sadness and hurt as well as my heart.my soul now lost in the abbys of darkness and feels like it will never be found....no light at the end of the tunnel and all hope is fading away...my true purpose is to die on the spot with regret and remorse....nothing holding me back and nothing in my way...i feel like im living a triple life, one that im happy, one that is a lie and one that im sad....now if as if they are combined that is how i feel now...no one will understand and no one will tell me or say that i have to be stong due to the fact that its already gone and done for...i am ignorant and no one cares or will do anything about it....the people who do care i will ignore their plea...i feel empty and i just need someone by my side....maybe a friend but i doubt they will come even though they may not be my real friend just a user who takes even the faintest of light from anybody and destroy the remains....

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it is too late now as for im dead....people crying but i know its a buch of lies....maybe when they are truely sorry i might come back but i know it will never happen.....to this day i am no longer who i am but now just a figment of a memory