A Galaxy Far, Far, Away...

Finding One's True Self Part 10

By Xan Steel

After a while, Maria and Daniel got cleaned up before coming out of the room to rejoin the others. As they came out, Daniel went to the map they had on a screen. Sandra turned to Maria and quietly asked, "Is he alright?"

"Yes and no, but he's going to explain the 'No' part." Maria finished.

Daniel began working the map screen to show the whole galaxy. Once he got it set up for the others, he had them sit down. "Before I start, I need to apologize to you all. I've been having it rough ever since I found out some information, and I've been taking it out on you guys. Which wasn't fair, and I'm sorry." He said sincerely. They accepted his apology readily, as they just wanted him to be ok.

Daniel turned to the map screen "As you're aware this is the Milky Way Galaxy. It's where we live, and for the most part largely unexplored." They nodded in understanding. "Having shared my dreams, I guess you could call them, involving Julyna and the Derlenian race."

Mathew interrupted him, "Wait you've come up with a name for them?" Mathew asked.

"No, I didn't, it's a name that I've been able to roughly translate with having to learn their language as best as I could. Anyway, what I wanted to show you is why I or us if you prefer, will never meet Julyna or her people." Daniel finished.

Daniel turned to the screen and began zooming it out more and more until many galaxies appeared on the screen. "As you can see this is our ten nearest neighbors within our visible universe." They sat there watching and listening intently. "Now let's focus in on the local group." He said as he began to zoom in. Focusing on the Milky Way, Andromeda, and Triangulum galaxies. He continued to magnify into Triangulum or more commonly known as M33. He then highlighted a smaller section of it.

"Wait!" Sandra said excitedly. "You're telling me that she or they are in another galaxy?"

"Yes, this particular area is known as the Tarkeesian belt." Daniel finished as he waited to see their reaction. They sat there stunned, unsure what to say. After a moment Sandra spoke again.

"I'm sorry, but I can't go that far. I know we've surveyed a few planets along the way in case Alpha Centauri was a no go, but I can't... It's just too much to take in." Sandra finished.

"Dan, you do realize that is about three million light-years away," Mathew said more as a statement than a question. To which Daniel nodded back in reply.

"Can you say for sure we would make it?" Sandra asked.

"No. This ship isn't designed to travel between galaxies. At every planet, we stopped at I used the solar panels to top off the power levels, as well as grab resources that the duplicator can turn back into energy." His mood became somber. "I only made this ship to travel to Alpha Centauri and be converted to a housing unit for us. I never planned on having these whatever you call them, of another race of people." Daniel finished.

Everyone looked at him until Sandra spoke in a concerned tone "Then why mention this?"

"Because I wanted you to understand why I've been depressed lately. I've not seen or heard from Julyna since she joined the Alliance and went to their academy." Daniel replied.

"You're still having these dreams?" Maria asked.

"Yes, every few days where I leave her letters to read," Daniel finished.

Sandra got up and took Daniel by the hand, "Come with me," she said and took him to the medical room. She had him sit in a chair as she placed the deep scanning unit on him again and began to run tests.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

"I'm running a scan on your brain because we discovered a growth in your cranial cavity," Sandra explained.

"Wait, what? When did this happen?" He sounded scared with having never been told.

"Don't move. And don't worry it's not cancerous." Sandra said while fiddling with some setting on the unit itself.

"How can you be sure? God, I'm so stupid to think my dreams were real." He said in a scared and angry tone.

"Oh, stop it! The growth in your skull is under the two hemispheres of your brain. It's called a paracortex. In parapsychology, it refers to an undeveloped part of the brain, where doctors on earth believed it was a lymph node. In theory, parapsychologists think it's what can make humans telepathic if they could figure out how to develop it." As Daniel listened to Sandra, he wondered how something like that could even happen him. Was it because of Julyna did to him, with being able to talk, as well as that mind blend she did?

Mathew turned to Maria while at the table and spoke softly. "You've been awfully quiet. What's your take on all of this?"

She didn't speak right away. "We just made love together, and while it helped him finally let go of his past pain. A part of me is jealous of this Julyna, and I know I shouldn't be." Mathew moved closer to her and drew her into a hug. "I just want him to be happy, and genuinely smile again regardless of where he is living." She finished as she leaned on him.

Mathew hugged her tightly, "We all want him to be happy, but the fact is, this trip is a huge risk. It's just the four of us starting a new colony on an unexplored world we haven't even reached yet. And here he is getting dreams or visions of another race somewhere in our universe, that even I can see he wants to be with, I'm assuming home life wasn't any good if he's running this far away from it." He said sympathetically.

"Our home life was hell. I practically raised him because our parents cared more about their religion than us. They also abused him more than me, and I've always felt awful about that." She took a deep breath before continuing. "One day he saw our father beating our mother badly to where she was bleeding. Danny was only eight at the time, but he snapped and got in the way yelling and hitting him to stop and to leave her alone. By the time I got there to pull him away, our mother had turned him around and backhanded him hard across the face and then yell 'GET AWAY FROM HIM YOU LITTLE SHIT!' I ran in and grabbed him and took him upstairs while they continued. The confusion on his face was painfully obvious, but he didn't cry, which worried me. I tried to bring him out of it, but I couldn't so I hugged him as I cried for us. He asked me not to cry and said that he would be strong enough to carry our pain." She spoke softly to Mathew before speaking a bit louder with anger. "He was only eight and already wanting to bear pain he shouldn't have too." Mathew hugged her tightly again as she continued.

"The day before that was the last day I had seen him honestly smile. After that, he barely spoke and only focused on getting the best grades he could. On graduation day, the school had lent us a few old robs they had laying around. Our parents didn't come because it interfered with their church time. We had worked so hard that Harvard welcomed us both with full scholarships for whatever majors we wanted to take. In the week, we took to get ready for the trip by bus, our parents found out and demanded that we go to a religious college, and as the bus pulled up, our father began waving a religious book in Danny's face. Danny took it and threw it into the burning fireplace and then turned to our father, and spoke for the first time in years saying, "Fuck your religion!" Then turned and walked out, I followed as fast as I could. However, before we made it to the bus, our mother came out a publicly disowned us. We ignored her and got on the bus and left never to return." Maria finished. She sat there leaning on Mathew trying to clear her head of the nasty memory. Mathew didn't know what to say, he only comforted her as best as he could. After a while, she turned to Mathew and said, "I don't even know why I told you that story."

"Sounds like you've needed to say it for some time." He replied.

"I'm sorry to burden you with our past," Maria said.

"Not at all, I wanted to help in some way I just wasn't sure how. If being a sympathetic ear helps you feel better, I'm here for you." She hugged him tightly and cuddled against him to relax.

A few weeks passed as things began to return to normal for everyone. They had managed to survey another planet, and the only thing different about it from the others was the ruins they discovered. They cataloged everything and took some samples with them. There wasn't much in the way of writing or pictograms for them to study, just trinkets and such, and some dirt samples that Sandra wanted to try and grow plants in and see how they turned out. Then suddenly an alarm sounded.